Find your zen, Darling

 

Hi, friends! Happy Summer. Thank you so much for stopping by to hear my heart today!


I’ve been working/traveling non stop lately so, I hardly have time to write anything now days. I never force a post. It has to be heavy on my heart and on my mind. Quality not quantity, my friends. I was on my way to meeting when I got the call that I didn’t have to come in until later today… let’s just say I was so happy and thankful I got a little extra time to myself

Today I was thinking about what to write about this week. There isn’t really a particular story I can tell you, or a recent situation that I want to vent about. Just a series of little things that add up to a conversation I wanted to have open up.

I have an unfortunately low tolerance for stress. I honestly shut down at the first taste of feeling overwhelmed… Just one of the many reasons I am so thankful to my family and girls. I’ve never seen anyone who can deal with so many issues at once, and still shine so brightly without dimming under pressure. I’m getting better at handling the feeling that I’ve disappointed someone, or the stress of learning how to handle money, work two jobs …  I know there’s so much more that a lot of you deal with on a daily basis, but just to be transparent here: most days I feel like I’m underwater.

When I was growing up, I never had pressure from my parents to be “perfect”. Never pressure from them, or friends. Just from myself. For some reason I operated under this microscope that I made for myself. It wasn’t until one random day, I realized I was actually dying under the hot lights of perfection I placed above me disguised as a halo.

I don’t know how this happened, but in my quest to please God, please my family, please these outrageous standards I’ve set for myself, I disconnected so much from not only myself, but from a lot of other things. I didn’t want anyone to know how much I was hurting on the inside, so I tried so badly to be happy and smile and make people laugh like normal. But in my private moments alone, I was so frustrated and displeased with myself that I would be surrounded by total darkness. I didn’t make room for the light of God but was still trying to be “salt and light” in front of others. You know what? The energizer bunny is a perfect example of what I was. I was running around, beating my drum trying to be adorable and loudly sweet to distract from the pain needing attention inside of my heart.

The light I was shining was temporary, it was synthetic and too bright to be real. For me to want everyone to think everything was perfect and sunny and happy all the time was the contributing factor to being burned out. I was constantly turning my light on for people and off when I was alone because I was trying to conserve the energy I had. Maybe you can relate to this, if not deeply then maybe just on those random days when you’re feeling low. But either way, I am typing this to tell you I’ve been there. Sometimes I still go there if I’m being real!

The reality is, sometimes we feel so deprived of true joy, true friendship and light and we don’t know “what’s wrong with us”. Especially women, I find us giving out so much. Taking care of so many. Being married, working jobs, going to school, holding our families together … We don’t realize that we’re living off of batteries instead of being connected to the source of eternal. I was definitely living off of batteries, just like that energizer bunny. So temporary, an external connection rather than an internal relationship.

It wasn’t until I connected myself to God not just in my deeds, but in my faith. It was then that I was able to actually leave the lights ON. Instead of flipping them off and on to conserve what was left of myself for other’s. When you realize that your identity is in Him, you don’t lose yourself in the pressure of perfection…Because God is perfect. You can leave the lights on not just to shine bright for other’s but in your privacy with God… He sustains you. His source never gives out, it never dims or dilutes. So it’s not your energy that keeps the lights on in your heart, but HIS presence that does.

This is just a reminder today to stay plugged into the Source, give up the batteries and pressure and fear of being “on” for everyone else. 

Be Brave. Live Bright

 

Love Faduma 

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Kismayo, Somalia

Home! I’m glad to finally meet you!

Peace and prosperity

Goobweyn: what a beautiful place! Is where Jubba river & Indian Ocean meet.

Mango obsession: I ate and drank for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and dessert ❤  

 

Monday motivation

This morning I woke up to so many of the women I’ve connected through my social media making announcements about their ventures. And they’re killing it out there! These women are powerhouses and paving their own way through the world! I’ve got women on my feed launching their own businesses, raising funds, securing deals left and right, creating successful brands, startups, podcasts, digital talk shows, capsule clothing collections, initiating causes to help others, balancing their 9-5s with their side hustles, enjoying their motherhood and still managing to pursue their dreams… there is SO much inspiration around us and I don’t imagine these women stopping anytime soon (and nor should they because this is just the beginning) 
So, I just wanted to take this opportunity to say – kudos to you all for being able to keep pushing and believing in yourself. Thank you for not only paving the way for yourself, but for those around you as well. May your drives take you far in life and may you all continue to be successful! May you continue to inspire us all. Happy belated women’s history month.
Happy Monday and Happy 1st day of April. 

Love,

Faduma 

 

 

what’s in my bag

Hello Sweet Peas!

Next to diamonds, I’d argue that a good bag is a girl’s best friend. What else holds our entire lives, our on-the-go-life savers, and even some of our deepest, darkest secrets, like a trusty handbag?

Right now, my Kate Spade tote bag is in heavy rotation. My favorite thing about it is that it’s such a compact size. It just holds so much.

I’m the kind of girl who throws everything and then some – laptop, calendar, books, papers, notepads, earring (my favorite accessories), lip balm, a makeup pouch, wallet, change purse, pen pouch, snack bar, lotion, hand sanitizer, a bottle of water – into her bag, just in case.

 

Love,

Faduma 

 

 

Fear of failure

 

 

Last 10 years I’ve traveled on my own whether its study of aboard across the world, or work travel. But I was so scared, overwhelmed and anxious last December to book a ticket to my new adventure. I wanted to be the best, but felt my worst. I wanted to lead, but also felt invisible. Paralyzed by fear of the unknown and frozen by the fear of failing. There is so much I want to be. For God and for me.
 I then began to realize if I kept pushing that date back, I’d NEVER make my dream a reality and if I fail at least I know I tried. It would never be in perfect condition so I just had to go for it.  It will always be a work in progress, and that’s okay.

Starting is the hardest part. I think that holds true for a lot of things in life. Starting a job. Starting an adventure overseas. Starting new relationships. It’s the unknown that scares people. But fear is for people who don’t get out much, and me, I’ve learned to get out much.

 To me, life is about the journey, where you want that journey to ultimately take you, and what you’re going to do when you get there. If you never start the journey, you’re ultimately doing yourself a huge disservice. This can also be paralleled with throwing caution to the wind.

I also learned to put my trust in God and that putting my words down and releasing them into the universe was therapeutic in a way. Maybe I’m not the only one thinking those thoughts, and that was some kind of weird therapy for me. Maybe that helps you,        maybe it doesn’t. 

To combat any fear within yourself, know that you will never have all the answers to your questions and that perfection does not exist, so find the good in the imperfections. They make us human and relatable.

 

Love,

Faduma

 

2019 Dreaming!

Hey Darlings,

So incredibly thankful for this amazing year. 2018, despite its hard beginning, became one of my favorite years I have spent on this earth…  The calm after the storm that was 2017.

2018 renewed my soul, brought me unlimited joy, and allowed
me to explore my passions. I have never felt more myself
as i did this year.

Forever grateful for the opportunities and experiences
this year gave to me.

I pray that the new year brings you everlasting happiness, blessings and peace!

Love, 

Faduma 

 

 

Goodread

Can you believe 2018 is almost over.  It has been pretty good year to me, and I’m sure it’s because I’ve made an effort to be more of an optimist. On a smaller scale, it’s probably also due to coffee and all the greats books I read  on travels. But maybe I’m projecting. You tell me.

Last year a lot of my books were self-help books. Helped me cope with changes and personal growth. Here are some of my favorite books I read on 2018. 


1. Kahlil Gibran’s The  Prophet –  I love love love this book written by one of my favorite author of all time.
The Prophet, is one of the most beloved classics. A collection of poetic essays that are philosophical, spiritual, and, above all, inspirational. Short but invaluable book of philosophy and encouragement It is filled with wisdom. Despite the religious implication
“You give but little when you give of your possessions.
It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.” 

  1. The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood:  I have loved this book since the first time I read it. It is horrifying, suspenseful, introspective, and just close enough to believable to be truly scary. If you only know the Republic of Gilead from the Hulu show (not the same), read this book.
  2. Becoming – I’m so thrilled to add Becoming to my list! A powerful, surprising and moving book as well as refreshingly candid that I think will be deeply inspirational to many. 


  3. Children of blood and bone by Tomi Adeyemi THE HYPE IS REAL!
    I always prefer to decide for myself if the new overhyped YA book is worth it… and I’m happy to say that this new Fantasy book totally was!

    This is genuinely the greatest debut fantasy novel, greatest fantasy novel in general that I have read in a very long time. Initially, I was TERRIFIED to read. The combination of its size and an epic high fantasy novel was very daunting to me, but I am so happy I picked it up. I cannot possibly recommend it enough.

  4. The Sun Does Shine How I Found Life and Freedom on Death Row – am not sure where to put my feelings after finishing this book. I am appalled, sad but also filled with admiration for this inncent man on death row for over thirty years, who managed to retain hope and love. He hung on, didn’t give up.
    Before I read this book, I didn’t have an opinion on the death penalty, but now I do!!!

  5. Letters to a Young Muslim: is a compilation of letters from a father to his son. It is full of wisdom and thoughtful reflections on faith, culture and society.  Love that this book encourages the readers to celebrate individuality whilst recognizing it is our shared humanity that can bring us together.

  6. Good fantasy novel Melina Marchetta never fails to write heart-wrenching relationships and tragedy and pain, of which this was a stellar example. I loved and cried over my favorite characters and the hardships and obstacles that they encountered.
             Froi of the Exiles (Lumatere Chronicles, #2)
             Quintana of Charyn (Lumatere Chronicles, #3)

  7. All The Light We Cannot See – follows the complex arcs of two such invisible lines through the lives of Werner Pfennig, an orphan boy in pre-World War II Germany and Marie-Laure Leblanc, a blind girl living in Paris with her father.
    The writing was incredible, the descriptions so vivid. It did a superb job of showing the reader how the characters felt through their actions, rather than telling.



  8. An immersive story of an interesting and well thought out land with lovable and hate-able characters. Just what I needed. Perfect mini escape from the real world, into magic ❤

    • Assassin’s Apprentice (Farseer Trilogy, #1)
    • Royal Assassin (Farseer Trilogy, #2)
    • Assassin’s Quest (Farseer Trilogy, #3) 

  9. Ruby by cynthia bond –  It rips your soul out of your body with it’s strong, dark presence. You beg to be released from the grips of this story. 

  10. Born a Crime: Stories From a South African Childhood – If you’re going to read this book, definitely listen to the audio version.
    Feels like he is sitting down with you and telling you his life story. Not only that, but you get to learn quite a bit about pre- and post-Apartheid South Africa from the perspective of someone who hypothetically shouldn’t exist.
    Noah’s mother is black and his father is white, and when he was born any mixed-race relationships were illegal.