Fear of failure

 

 

Last 10 years I’ve traveled on my own whether its study of aboard across the world, or work travel. But I was so scared, overwhelmed and anxious last December to book a ticket to my new adventure. I wanted to be the best, but felt my worst. I wanted to lead, but also felt invisible. Paralyzed by fear of the unknown and frozen by the fear of failing. There is so much I want to be. For God and for me.
 I then began to realize if I kept pushing that date back, I’d NEVER make my dream a reality and if I fail at least I know I tried. It would never be in perfect condition so I just had to go for it.  It will always be a work in progress, and that’s okay.

Starting is the hardest part. I think that holds true for a lot of things in life. Starting a job. Starting an adventure overseas. Starting new relationships. It’s the unknown that scares people. But fear is for people who don’t get out much, and me, I’ve learned to get out much.

 To me, life is about the journey, where you want that journey to ultimately take you, and what you’re going to do when you get there. If you never start the journey, you’re ultimately doing yourself a huge disservice. This can also be paralleled with throwing caution to the wind.

I also learned to put my trust in God and that putting my words down and releasing them into the universe was therapeutic in a way. Maybe I’m not the only one thinking those thoughts, and that was some kind of weird therapy for me. Maybe that helps you,        maybe it doesn’t. 

To combat any fear within yourself, know that you will never have all the answers to your questions and that perfection does not exist, so find the good in the imperfections. They make us human and relatable.

 

Love,

Faduma

 

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